"Nothing of me is original, i am a combined effort of everybody i've ever known"

the big reveal!

Hey all,

i told you i would give you a sneak preview of my recently transformed, "love in the city" project.

Here are a few of my images that i came up with whilst in the recent anger of each argument.

each image is a pure visualisation of whats going on in my mind. 

well here you go ...

 Ever felt as if there was a "pointless" mood. well every time we would argue all he would do is fall asleep as if nothing had happen. Leaving me just sitting there, back to back. all so pointless. The idea of sharing a bed is the same as shearing your love. Love was not spread that evening so the sharing bed part was not needed. All i wanted to do is for him to go away and realise what happened. I felt empty, upset, and disappointed. Nothing around me mattered. I wanted love.

This is a version from photoshop. The textures,  adds that harsh tension.

wWith this one i had enough. felt as i i was always doing something wrong. I was never right. When i slipped up he would make sure to rub it in my face. I felt useless and there was nothing i could do that would change that. I had so much to let out and release but he never aloud me to speak because he would always answer back and reject what i had to say. My head was bursting with stuff that needed to be release in and big scream. So i did.

It's been a while... lets catch up

so i know i haven't been updating you for a while.
so much work has happened,
but the big news !

Love In The City is no longer. iv totally scrapped that idea.
after a long tutorial, discussing my idea and the fact its to easy and does flow made me realise that that project was going NO WHERE. but don't worry i came out of there with my chin up and ideas buzzing.
john in my tutorial asked me if my story board was based on real life. it wasn't based on my own experiences but just the general concept of how love comes and goes.
This made me think.
Although my central idea was to create a book using just fingers as my characters i wanted to explore in depth this whole "love" idea, and the only way to understand it, was to talk about my own life and my very current relationship which has gone sour.

i set myself a goal of writing down every argument me and my boyfriend (Connor) had. You may be asking yourself why arguments? why not the "happy" times ? well that might be because i cant remember the last time me and my boyfriend had a good time and didn't argue. so I'm being real within what my relationships about, and what I'm currently experiencing with my love life.
arguments are very personal, and have deep hidden meanings, and all I'm doing is writing exactly what I'm thinking.
although this is very personal to me i thought its the only way to succeed
for each argument i sat and rote in my journal and then drew what ever pops up into my head. These images will be my final. The final product of what I'm going through and my own understanding of what makes Love work.

right there you go.
that's what i have done.
stay in touch and you will son see these images !!